As a resident of picturesque Scotland, I have been forced to join friends on weekly running sessions up glens (that’s a big hill, to those with normal vocabulary) and over many a sandy beach. I’ll be frank, I despise it. Loathe, in fact.
The reason for my hatred is probably just that I’m pretty unfit and almost definitely carrying a little bit too much beef. I simply cannot compete with my peers. One good thing has come of my recent running escapades – I believe I’m a great actor. How I can be close to death but pretend that I’m actually okay and can indeed breathe, kind of amazes me.
I had never really heard of this saying before tonight but every time I say it, it becomes more and more true. Have you ever really thought of being in love, or love at first sight? It boggles my mind as to how our bodies and mind work, but I thought I would give you a glimpse of what I think about it.
I have never really been a very romantic person, and in all honesty I haven’t found that right person to make me want to bend over backwards for them. (I am assuming a lot of people have been here, and are probably here right now). I am here to tell you that it is not the end of the world. The way that we live our lives is our choice. But I haven’t always been this type of person. I had a lot of changes, broken heart moments, and relationships that have shaped who I am.
I had been a very insecure person about not being with someone and I really put my identity into having a relationship. Although at the time it felt very needy, it became just a way of life and I never really learned how to be content with where I am at in life. As time went by I went in and out of relationships very frequently, to the point where friends and family didn’t want to meet my partners because they knew this person would be gone just as fast as they came. Each time I would find one thing about that person that would attract me which then began a cycle of isolating myself around that feature or attribute about that person and ignoring those around me. I may be speaking to a larger crowd than I think I am. In the end, your personal life is yours and what you do with it is your choice. The thing you have to remember is that sometimes those who were there with you through some of your choices may not be there forever.
Have you been in a situation where you’ve allowed your emotions get the best of you?
Recently I have been in a conflict with someone at my work in regards to an incident that had happened last week. It all started when she kept calling in sick for each one of her shifts so we were either short handed, or we would be struggling to find someone to cover for her. It came to a point where I was beginning to become frustrated with her so on the schedule I wrote “sick” in quotations. The next day I got a Facebook message from this person calling me all sorts of things and saying I was assuming when she has a “medical need”, but no one had ever talked about it before. This brings me to the point of my article: Where you draw the line with an argument or hostility?
I’ve grown up with parents who told me to stand up for what I thought was right and to essentially live life not regretting decisions. Do I regret my decision with this situation? Nope. Not one bit. I’ve come to realize that what I did was not only an eye opener for her but for other people that this individual needs to realize that if this perception that she’s giving off made me assume this, then what would be different than someone else writing it?
In the end, I will be sitting down with this person and making it a point that if my assumption of her is this, then I am probably not the only one who works with her that feels the same way. So the question stands:
Where do you draw the line? Have you thought maybe you’ve been there, and you do not know where to stop it?